lately,

everything has been such a fucking mess. school’s a bitch, volleyball’s getting boring and frustrating, and i’ve been such a dumbass you don’t even understand. and another thing that makes me so freaking sad is that i let my anger problems get the best of me today. i thought i’ve been handling myself pretty well but i guess not. all i know is, it hurts to see myself get like that because that’s not me, i’m so much better than that. i know i should go to those anger management classes but ew.. ugh i just hate feeling like i’m not achieving anything at all, and like i’m such a disappointment to my parents, and i especially HATE the fact that i’m so confused over HIM again. what the fuck is wrong with me? i take one step forward, two steps back. no matter how fucking far i go i always just end up coming right back to square one. i went through all that pain and i overcame it, and now i’m just gonna come back to it? wow when will i learn. and another thing, i don’t even feel close to anyone anymore. it hella sucks how the people who i was once so close to are slowly fading away and how at the moment, i couldn’t care less. what the hell is this ):

hm but on the plus side.. my grades are getting better, i’m gonna be working soon and driving by december!! k that’s about it i guess so good nightz.