being the bigger person

can be so fucking difficult at times. Because honestly I’m still so angry and hurt but I just don’t even know what to do about it anymore. And that FAKEASS apology over aim, like how its always done when it comes to his “apologies”, didnt help either. I wanna hurt him like how he hurt me so fucking bad but then again I don’t, because in the end I know I’ll just regret it and it’ll be even harder for me to move on from all this. It’s like im fighting with myself 24/7 and its getting so restless. So I’m gonna try to handle my emotions and keep all those nasty words to myself. But godfuckingdamnit I have never in my life hated someone this much.